I’ve taken an break from blogging, and all things internet based for a few weeks now. I’m still writing, but I’m working on three different projects at the same time (not the fast or focused way to get things done!) and I’ve stepped back to take a good look at where I’m headed and concluded I have absolutely no idea.
It amazes me that once we reach adulthood our hopes and dreams become fleeting thoughts lost in the flurry of activity that is every day life. I’ve been so busy that I haven’t actually set my next goal. I’ve been lost in the loop of chores and my little flashes of goal setting have been pushed to the back while I tended to the things I thought I SHOULD be doing.
This past weekend, I let those little tasks (like dusting, because it never gives me a sense of accomplishment) go and I focused on what I wanted to do instead of what I thought I should do.
I started a new painting. I read a book. I played with the dog. I watched a movie. I lounged. I took a two hour nap shortly after getting out of bed.
I don’t remember the last time I did those things because I had been so focused on my t0-do list that the thought of just relaxing and hanging out didn’t occur to me. After all, I had a book to finish. I had blog posts to check in on. I had laundry to do. I had a book to edit. I had been cramming as many of my hobbies in around my chores as I possibly could just to have a sense of accomplishment and not wake up Monday morning feeling like I frittered away two whole days.
So, I’ve been frittering and I’ve enjoyed it. I’m not ready to start the loop of write, edit, publish, publicize, monitor, stress, post, plot, write again – not yet. I’m going to fritter for a few more days until I can’t stand it anymore. I’ll work on the three projects until one of the begins to demand completion. I might even dust something.